I’m starting to get really annoyed with all the egos in the performance community. It’s so cut throat that I’m starting to think that I don’t really give a damn about performing anymore if I have to put up with people always trying to throw me under the bus.

I’ve been a performer long enough to know that sadly, you can trust very few people that you work with because someone will always be looking for a way to put you under to put themselves over.

I dunno, sometimes I think I should get out of the game and really focus on surrounding myself with positive people. I enjoy performing so much…but I don’t enjoy the stupid drama that comes along with it. I’ve done an excellent job of staying out of drama even if someone is trying to ruin my reputation for big bookings, I’m tired of hearing all the shit haters are talking about me. I don’t usually let it get to me, but a particular piece of drama surrounding me and a major booking has sort of left me with a sour taste in my mouth… so much that I don’t even want to spin the event anymore…and that’s really bad because that means that the particular person who stabbed me and the rest of the girls in my troupe in the back has made me completely apathetic towards doing something I love and it makes me wonder if I need a break from all of this…